This autumn has been a particularly breathtaking one for the foliage. I didn't make note of when the fall colors started emerging, but I'm thinking it's been a good 3-4 weeks already, with new electric reds starting to show up as other trees start losing their leaves in earnest. I can't recall a prettier autumn.
Each morning as I drive up 288N on my way to work, it hits me again. After remarking to myself how lovely it all is, I remind myself that it's fleeting and soon enough will be just a memory, which itself will fade over time. As yet another reminder to live in and cherish the present moment, I take a moment to simply breathe, look, and enjoy.
I remind myself to do that when I'm with the three of you too. You'll be little for such an achingly short time, and soon enough you won't demand or even want my help getting dressed or holding your small hands as we come down the stairs. Infinite hugs and kisses as I leave the house in the morning, or your requested "hundred million" more at bedtime will fade away until you won't want your friends to see me as you get dropped off at school or sports. So for now I remind myself - breathe, smile, and rejoice in your unconditional love for me. This moment will be a memory in a blink of an eye.
Daddy asks me often if I'm unhappy because my face at rest has a natural frown. Believe me, I've never been happier. I'll try to remind my face to show it more often. I love you and him more than anything on earth. Never forget it, even when you're "too old for a hundred million hugs and kisses." I'm never too old.
Love, Mommy
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